02 February 2012
#24
It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone
all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change
when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but
stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time.
It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on.
And when you want to move on, but you’re stuck right where
you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide
what you want. When you have so many things to say but you
don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life
so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away.
It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look
at it now and realize that things are different and they may never
be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really
didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.
